self-hate

I'm in a very deep trouble..
and i hate myself..
for bein' in this shit..
coz i never fought..

i'd been so vulnerable..
and weak..
now I'm falling..
going nowhere but down..

i think I'm losing my grip..
of the only sanity..
that's left of me..

i may be hurting now..
i may be in pain..
but it's all worth it..


arrggghhh...

same-old-emo-masochist-me..